"I will be deaf to pleading and excuses; Nor tears nor prayers shall purchase out abuses, therefore use none."

The Following blog comes from a more personal nature and may not make much sense/interest to others who know me not.

As recent as a few years ago I was enjoying a good social life with friends and family alike. Now, I still do but it seems to be on an entirely new level of complexity. Without going to specifics I've just idly noticed that things simply aren't the way they are before. Sure, it's just a way of life as one grows up. Get used to it!!! Right? Go with the flow. Things just...happened.
On the other hand, it may be just me..that I've become rather cynical about most of the aspects in my life that have affected me within the last few years. Is it me? Am I striving to hard to work things out for myself and then becoming increasingly more cynical and pessimistic when they don't? Maybe it's the absence of God in my life that may be the trouble.
Lately He's been playing the role of the sidekick who I hang out with and only talk to when I need something. Not having spoken to Him personally may have been a factor. I mean, He knows the outcome of everything I do, will do, and can do but don't. Should my walks with Him be longer? Should I spend more time with Him, talking with Him. Discussing this with like-minded people around me seems to draw me to the fact that He should be leading my life. It's a sort of leap of faith that I can leave my life in His hands.

It's getting increasingly harder and harder to do things without disappointing someone. One side of me is telling me that I need to just deal with it; it's a way of life/ grow up. Am I being immature in not wanting things to change? or nostalgic?
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I don't want to become known for being intentionally nefarious towards others. I still love all the people (so far in a platonic sense) I loved five years ago as well as others I've met since then.

Mercy for those who make you stumble.
Kindness for those who make you mad.
Patience for those you do not understand or favour.
Love for those who show you none.

Humility, above all else, before God.
Look into the eyes of those you love. Look into those of who you are angry at. What do you see? Look harder. Deeper. What do you see? Can you see it? Can you? Now look in a mirror. By God we are all made in His image. Formed to be god-like, yet still imperfect.

For those who know me:
If I have made you stumble, hurt you, or somehow angered you I am truly sorry.

Am I going crazy?

I think I have MPD; everytime I get in the car i have to adjust the seat because it's either too far back or too close to the steering wheel.

"Do you have any idea how much insurance is on a Ferrari?"

We're well into there NHL strike/lockout and it pretty much seems as if there's going to be no NHL league this year. No stars playing hockey, no great passes, no great shots or one-timers, no great saves. This might be just me but I've seen a decline in hockey. I don't watch much of the games, only the big ones (Stanley Cup finals, All Stars, Olympic, World Cup etc.), Especially Olympic and World Cup hockey, where Canada plays against other teams around the world. The last World Cup was great, thought it would have been nice to face team USA in the finals.

The reason i prefer the big games to regular NHL games now is that regular NHL games are made up of too many grunts. Yes, Grunts. In video games these were/are the characters that didnt' say anything nor do much in the game, just try to take you down. In the hockey context, they will check you, trip you, hook you, hold you; without much concern for trying to control the puck. In the big games you have players that can skate fast (and well), handle the puck, pass well and set up great shots that fans will be talking about well after the game is over.

Normally I wouldn't complain as the good stars still shine, but this lockout has me a little peeved. Especially since about 250 of them are playing in Europe. Sure they can play hockey there but here's the kicker: THEY'RE PLAYING FOR ABOUT $100,000 AND THEY WON'T PLAY HERE FOR LESS THAN $1,000,000.

Hockey were better if it were golf. In golf you have to show up, play and do well before you see a decent amount of money. Say...i dunno, $150 per goal, $25 per save, -$25 per penalty, and $100 per suspension (excluding any fines, which can be added). These values may not be fair as they are but you get the idea.