Welcome to my Illusion

Have you ever found yourself sitting/lying down where you are and staring into space?

Have you ever thought of your surroundings as if they were just a dream?

Has that dream ever been your reality?

Lately I've been looking at the world as an illusion. One that is interactive and comes with its own rules and concepts. You interact with the world and the people in it, figuring out how to get the best out of it then sit back and observe it for a while before tinkering with it again. In a dream you are completely watching and not very aware that you are dreaming until you wake up. But an illusion....an illusion seems so real because it feels so real to you.
And many people are trying to separate their illusions from their realities. But what if you can't differentiate between illusions and reality until the illusion ends? Once an illusion ends it will never start again. You may start another one, but will you be aware of it?

I dunno...that's my blog for the session.
out.

It's not about you....or me.

As with most students at St. Lawrence College, I have had the pleasure of having the previous week off, with classes resuming on the 10th. During that week I have spent more time with friends and doing stuff together. But not only that. I have also been pondering my travels with God. I call them travels because they are not always walks; they can also be stumbles, crawls, or even just standing or sitting still.
In the past couple weeks I have seen sides of people that I either have not seen before or have not been paying enough attention to and these sides are starting to bother me. I am loathe to say anything lest I be like them - is this why I never talk much and am much reserved...that I'm holding my tongue? - but it bothers me still. And I know that if I say something it will be taken the wrong way. It's happened before and I can trust that it will happen again. Earlier in this blog I commented that I may have become more cynical about things. If you read that blog you may get an idea of that I was thinking. Since then, things have changed little.

However, things have changed little only in that respect and that respect only.

The reason I might have become more cynical may not be because of you or anyone else you probably know who might make me this way. It likely can be because of the way I have perceived/seen it. Lacking the ability to look at situations in an objective way I can only try to look at it from different views to gain a multiangled perspective which may seem more objective than merely one view.

I see what I see and I immediately form an opinion of it. But opinions of people are changed (either for the better or the worse) . These changes are dependent on events related to the people and those surrounding them. But not only that, if something you see annoys you more than anything else about someone, your opinion is likely not going to be a positive one about them. Dwelling upon it too much can skew your opinion of it, changing it unfairly. Maybe I've been doing this too much too often.

Because it's not about me. Or you. Or anyone in the world, be they on CNN, in the news, at the coffee shop, driving the bus that just cut you off, or sitting right next to you in church/at a friends house/in a pub. It never was. Just as your life cannot be judged objectively by another, another's life cannot be objectively judged by you.

There is no such thing as Christian music
Does listening to music with christian lyrics make you a christian? Does it make you a better christian than the one who doesn't? I'm not talking anymore about chances or how likely you are to "fall away from the christian faith" if you don't.

How many people have you picked up stones for this week? Did it make you feel good to do that? Do you even realize you're doing it? Or do you deny doing it and go on living the lifestyle you live and believe what you want to believe.
Remember, you are being watched by your peers and they are noting your behaviour just as much as you're noting theirs.


At the end of the day I always wonder what kind of impact I've made on those around me. What they think of me is irrelevant. How they live because of it is.

Hypocrisy

"The greatest single cause of atheism in the world today is Christians, who acknowledge Jesus with their lips and walk out the door, and deny Him by their lifestyle. That is what an unbelieving world simply finds unbelievable." - Brennan Manning

Some people can't even go a single day without being like that. My lips remain closed lest I become like them. I won't judge them or throw a stone; it's not my right nor do i have any good reason do (I'm likely the same way). Hypocrisy (this week at least, check back later for updates) is starting to annoy me more than arrogance.

Have a nice day.