the Rabbit Hole Feature: While the others experienced this in a very general way, your experience is far more specific

As you adequately put, the problem is choice. But we already know what you're going to do, don't we? Already I can see the chain reaction, the chemical precursors that signal the onset of emotion, designed specifically to overwhelm logic, and reason.

What is it that makes people do things for other people that they would not normally do?
That one thing that acts simultaneously as a person's greatest strength and as their greatest weakness.
That makes them willing to risk almost anything against what can be nothing.
What is it that makes someone occupy your thoughts within the waking world and your dreams within the sleeping one?
The thing that can cripple even the strongest of people without leaving a single scratch on the surface, that which wounds without blood, producing a pain that is not physical.
Why do people choose to risk such pain? And when deeply wounded, why do they choose to risk it over and over?
What is it that evokes such a strong emotion that it overrides all other emotions and governs their actions accordingly, defying logic and the power of the mind to make rational decisions; defying sense and practicality.
Is it something from a higher plane? A divine gift that is not created on this world and is not governed by it?